#1

I always have trouble deciding what to write when I "blog." 

So often, blogs proliferate themselves as shrines to the egos and opinions of their creators. Somehow, if you post your opinion on the internet, it becomes authoritative, and none dare disagree. You become creative and witty, so that people love you. You emote and write poetry, so that people feel your agonizing existence and admire you. You vent and tirade and spew venom at anything you disagree with, so that you can say you have an effect on the world.

This was (is) apparent on Xanga, where I first opened a blog. I sensed all the pretentiousness of the intelligentsia of Belhaven College and its "honor's society" within its ranks. After a year or two of attempts at baring my soul to cyberspace, I finally resorted to a "word of the day" format that lasted inconsistently for two or three years. I realized I never used it because I didn't particularly like it, and so I shut it down last fall.

Now Hilary and I share a blog. What am I supposed to say? Do I attempt to communicate the ordinary, rather boring activities of my life in a witty, whimsical way? Do I bear the deep burdens of my soul to a captive internet audience? Do I reflect on things I have been learning or reading about? Do I contrive a theme or story to be continued? 

Honestly, I would like to be one of those bloggers who has profound, insightful things to communicate, things which would shape the world and change the lives of my readers. That's the preacher in me. Then there is the realist in me that realizes the ridiculousness of trying to do that via blogosphere. Who shall prevail? 

We Shall See.